Transformation

Im glad to have eternal life because I know that I am always accepted and loved, I don't have to compromise myself to please others.

Most of my life I have been involved in ungodly relationships, many times I felt convicted but, I ignored it and continued to live my life. I remember feeling so convicted during a sexual encounter one time that I had to stop. I felt guilty and even though I was going to church I couldn't worship wholeheartedly knowing that I would go back and do the same thing. I believed the lie that because we "loved" each other it was ok or that it's just sex. I minimized how major of a mistake I was making. I didn't want to continue living a lie. I continued to pray and try to make and keep my commitments to the Lord. Asked for his guidance and self discipline to deny myself. I wanted to be right in my heart not just religious.

I believe that God loves me, I see the grace he's shown me over the years of my life. I can see times that I should have been dead, or could've been raped and left for dead. I see that even though I deserved death for the ways I was living He still blessed me. I am forgiven. And to know that he doesn't hold grudges, that through Jesus' sacrifice I am justified makes me stand in awe. I am grateful because I know I could easily be living a much different life. I don't cry as many guilty tears now, but tears of gratitude and joy confidence and peace. Do the days and nights get difficult sometimes? Yes! They do but, I know God is able and I trust Him.