To Die Is To Live!

Before i received eternal life i was afraid of dying. i felt disappointed, guilty and ashame of my life. i had picked up a life of bad habits of addiction. and was living a life of loneliness and separated myself from others. i felt a sense of emptiness in my life and i knew that i could not continue in this life any longer. i needed inner peace i needed purpose. i needed to trust in God's plan and not my habits. i needed confidence and security.

I remember back then, all i could think about was, where will i end up if i don't survive this habit. I got tired of the life I was living. I began to cry out to God, I tried to read and understand the word of God and I would get angry when I could not. A fellow female Christian told me, that i cannot do this on my own, she said you need to ask God to help you. So i took her advice. The church that my husband and i was attending was set up inside of the apartment office building where his sister lived. The pastor on this particular day had open testimonies at the alter on that Sunday morning. I began to ask God for help and He began to open doors of answered prayers and I made up my mind on Oct.31st of 2005 that this is my last hit of cocaine, this is my last pull off of cigarette and my last drink of getting drunk The preacher invited people to give their testimonies at the alter one Sunday and I set there in my seat no one else moved from their seat so I did not move. A still small voice spoke softly and whispered in my ear as though someone bent over my shoulder to whisper in my ear and said are you ashame of my deliverance for you. And it was as if i was gently lifted up, out of my seat at church that Sunday. I stood before the congregation and gave my testimony of God’s transformation in my life and 19 to 20 people came forward behind my testimony and gave their testimony of God’s deliverance in their life…… this particular Sunday i received Christ into as my eternal Lord and Savior. and i testified how God delivered me from the life i was living. i felt assurance in God and assurance of God's unconditional love for me. I feel forgiven, i feel a high level of divine hope and i feel content and peaceful because God has freed me from my past of shame and guilt.

I stood before the congregation and gave my testimony of God’s transformation in my life. many people came forward after my testimony and gave their testimony of God’s deliverance in their life. People surrendered their life over to God the same day like i did. Those who had drugs on them at that particular time, laid their drugs at the alter. They all confess Christ…… this particular Sunday i felt God's true love through such a highly divine atmosphere. I received Christ in my life as my eternal Lord and Savior.

i have received and chosen a positive way of living now. I trust totally and confidently in God's plan for my life. I have a means of security i have been given a second chance at life. I am content with the peace that God has given me. I have hope and assurance that i will make it to heaven. I have been forgiven for my past sinful life that i once lived.

I now have an incredible peace about dying because a second chance has been granted to me. The negative life i once lived was a life of vainglory and without purpose. Since i have received Jesus Christ as my Lord in Savior. i don't have to worry about Him coming as a thief in the night. I don't have to worry about going to hell because of a life of sin. Jesus has made a way for me to have a chance to experience a positive life, a peaceful life, a life that leads from life on earth, to eternal life in heaven. After i have taste the goodness of God.....i have decided to follow Jesus.

(John 3:16) say For God so loved the world that He gave His only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life. (Romans 10:9) says, that if you confess with your mouth, Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. The moment i believed in my heart and confessed with my mouth, I believe at that moment i was made right with God. God cleanse me of my past and current sin. I was forgiven for sinning against God. When I openly declare my faith that i am saved and I believe in my Lord Jesus Christ that He saved me. Jesus gave me the right to become a child of God. I received eternal life as a free gift. For the gift of God which is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord. He came that i can spend eternity with Him. He promised me in His Word that if He go to prepare to a place for me, that He will come back and take me with Him that i may be where He is. So i confidently believe for sure that i have eternal life and are going to heaven when i die.