The life of a broken soul

Before I received Jesus Christ as my lord and savior I lived a life of of anger, emptiness, no self purpose no self esteem hurt anxiety and depression first and foremost let me tell you my testimony in short story At a young age I had very bad things happen to me as a young child I used that as an excuse to self Medicate hide from my pain and depression. Later in my teenage years I had a baby thinking I could protect her before I fixed my inner demons. I failed I threw myself into a relationship for protection that failed it also included abuse I kept that cycle for many years. I found someone who I truly loved although we were toxic for each other fast forward many years down the road through this long road we continued to seek each other, along the road we had three children together not including a child I had before. He went to prison i struggled raising children on my own fighting depression and the feeling of failure I felt providing for my children.We found out each other again we decided to give it all to God although at that time I still had a feeling of resentment towards God for what I’ve been through.We served God we fell into old patterns.. I was at my lowest

After me and my Husband fell into dark times we were driving to work lost not knowing what to say to each other I spoke to God on my way to work I told my father whether it be his will that this marriage shall last I give it to you..he spoke to me he told me he shall lead us to his kingdom he told me we will conquer all through his name never in my life have I felt such clarity and peace all things are possible if you shall seek them in his name thank you father God for my rebirth.

Since I have accepted the Lord as my savior I have a new sense of forgiveness and clarity and peace he has eased me from depression and anxiety no matter how much satan tries to bring me down

My after is still continuing I can’t say what it will be as I continue my journey all I know it will be beautiful in his name

When I felt lost and consumed my failure as a mother by my choices of drugs and abuse

I have felt the spirit before and and failed my father but I feel now a new sense of happiness and peace that I know he has touched my soul that I shall not fail him