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I found myself alone at the banks of dam. I felt inside a bit strange; I couldn’t point exactly what it was at first, but new it felt right. So i continued to proceed. I found myself wanting to be honest with myself, and speak out the hurt that I denied to myself. I found myself speaking to God telling Him all these thing that I’ve never said before out my mouth. Let alone what to think about. I started opening myself to the Lord; then felling the argue To speak in the spirit and sing alike. My Spirit wanted to intercede for me in what needs to happen. As I was in the middle of this, I felt encouraged to proclaim Gods word over my life, and how he sees me on who I am in Christ. I began to speak in boldness Gods living spoken words over my life and How precious, and loved I am by Him. I knew at that moment what I wanted from God at that time. I wanted Him to give me a reference on who His is?, and His love towards me. So in my praise to God I boldly asked Him to reveal Him self to me, and speak to me!. I did not feel any guilt,shame or unworthiness at all that would hinder me. Hinder me in a way that I might feel that God would be disappointed in me or ashamed at me at all. I knew with such Faith that I was pleasing to God, and He Loved me just the way I am. I believed that God is always for me. Never against me. Against me for example that He would not revile Himself to me. I just believed I knew this. It was so supernatural so clear in my most inner being. I knew God was there one hundred percent. As I know God is always with me through Jesus, and what He did for me. That I have become the righteousness of God through Christ Jesus. I know that He lives in me. So I was with out a doubt that He was there!, and He wanted to revile His Glory to me more than i wanted Him to; as I felt He wanted to do so for so long. So in that moment my Heart was widely open for Him to speak to me. I told God that I’m not going to leave here without Him manifesting His presents. So not long after I started feeling really wired, in a good way that is. If I could explain the best humanly way, it felt like to me I was in a zone or trance. It was like God and I was the only two on earth. It felt like it was just Him and me United after so long. I felt that God and I always knew each other; and that I missed Him and He missed me. He knew that I needed Him to come to me. I started feeling God telling me wonderful things. It felt more real than words spoken to my ears. I just knew that I knew that my Father is talking to me. It’s actually unexplainable. He was telling me how proud He is of me, and the great work that He has planed for me. He was saying to me that He has longed for me to get to were I am. That I might be serious about life, and the importance of my calling (purpose) to the kingdom. (Our Home) I felt so moved by how God was showing or telling or commutating this to me in a unreal way. It felt more real than how I can see with my natural earthly eyes. I began to start thinking in my head all these questions I wanted to ask, and for God to show me. I didn’t know it at that time right away, but in my acknowledging of these thoughts; and questions that I wanted to ask God. I started feeling like God was drawing away from me!. At first I wounded why He was drawing away from me. I knew that He wanted this more than me, so with out hesitation I began to pray in the spirit. As I know He will interned for me, and revile the answer what happened and why. So it was not even a minute or two later I knew what happened and why?. I felt the holy Spirit telling me that it was not God. He is always there!, all the time never turning His back away from His children.The Holy Spirit started telling me that it was my mind and worldly matters that took me away from seeing God. It was me being consumed in questions rather on what was happening, and focusing on Him. So it came clear to me as daylight that God is never the one drawing away from me, but rather myself drawing away from Him. I sort of knew this before, but never really experienced it in this way before. So as I was pasting up and down taking my mind off things that are below, and exalting things that are above I began to fell God telling me to go to the other side of the dam. I didn’t know it at the time, but He was going to revile His love towards me in a unexpected way. So with out even thinking twice about it I began to walk. But just before I started walking I wanted to pick up my cellphone; and lighter I had with me, but straight away I felt God telling me that I must leave it right were it is. At first I wanted to ignore that thought, and take it with me to the other side, but I knew I felt the Lord telling me I must trust in Him and leave it there. So I did!. I left it right there as it was. I felt nothing of it at all in that time. I was more focused on how awesome God is, and amazed I am in His presence. Not even a thought or an expectation come to my mind that would make me want to set a standard on what I might or might not wanted in my experience. My Spirit man knew that well also, and safeguarded me from thinking of any. I was just in total conversation with God. In fellowship I would rather say. I was praying in and out of Spirit with an open heart to God. As I became near to approaching that witch God wanted me to go to, being lead by the spirit. I felt this super peace over me with such a clear mind I’ve never experienced before I felt God getting so excited over me and Rejoicing in faith towards Him. I felt that nothing else matter but God, and I’m certain He felt the same way about me. I was so astonished in His presence. Enjoying every moment of it; feeling like time itself has stoped, and nothing else mattered. I saw something (. ) hanging from ??? When I saw it I did not expect it to be a sign from God?. I walked towards it and pick it up!. As soon as I touch it I felt God could not contain Himself in excitement for me. He revived to me right there straight away like a father is excited on his sons First birthday or birth (times a trillion) I knew exactly what God gave me, and how precious of a gift It is to me. I felt a love I never experienced before. I felt a love from God I did not know existed before. My heart began to receive this love, and understanding of Him with His greatness that will stay with me forever. I felt so excited for life, and what is to come. But mostly at that time I just wanted God more!, and for Him to revile Himself to me again in His majesty that I just encountered. I was praying in the spirit, and singing, and rejoicing to Him on how amazing He is in all His ways; and the promise I just received. I started walking back. I got about half way, and just like that I felt The Holy Spirit showing me my cell-phone and lighter I left on the other-side; and the promise I received on that side to my right. I felt God telling me to choose Him the “Promise” or choose the other side where my cell-phone and lighter was that represented the “World”. It felt so real , and clear to me what God was showing me. I just knew I wanted Him. The world only destroyed me, and I knew that I didn’t want it!. Or anything, but God and His promises for me. I just raised my hand, and said Yes Dad I want you more than anything else. I knew at that time afterwards why I needed to leave it behind. I just praised God more, and asked Him to Revile Himself to me again; but even more than the past two times. As I was in worship with the Father, and speaking His word I felt something so powerful come over me; but so gentle in a way not forced, but in such great peace & Love come into me. It felt like it could even be part of me. I was saying yes Father come, and I was speaking in the spirit to. All of a sudden I heard myself speak to myself, but I was not saying theses powerful words. I knew it was God!. He was crying with love telling me how much He loves me, and how precious I am to Him. He was saying that He and all of Heaven is for me and are with me now, and always, and telling me that this world is nothing with Him on my side; and I must just trust in Him, only rely on Him only. I felt such a love I can’t explain. I felt in my heart that God, and I had always been together forever “before time itself” before the foundations of this universe. I felt that He missed me so much, and I missed Him. I felt that God and I were always together. It was so overwhelming felt so true, and the power of His words felt like it was the first words ever spoken EVER!!!. It felt like it was only God and myself there, and nothing else existed ever only us together. This went on for a few more minutes, and slowly with peace left. When I came to, I felt in my body like it was going to brake out in light, for better terms. I was also breathing heavily like I just ran a 5km run, but felt good. I still ask God that please He must talk to me like this all the time, but He said to me I will speak to you through my word “bible”. I still said your word?, and immediately I felt God look at me strange; and say yes. That is how I do speak to you one of the ways Jonathan. I just laughed at myself, and said yes Father I know. I think I was just overwhelmed by my experience probably. And so after that I slowly made my way back to my car in astonishment on what I’ve experienced, how shocked I was looking how everything worked out like this. I knew that satin wanted to try, and steal this away from me; but God is greater. As soon as I got Home I opened my room, and found my bible open, so I went to it cos I know it was not like that; and I started reading that chapter God really reviled, confirmed everything that happen to be true every step of it. He gave me such a revelation on a “type & shadow” in his word that just confirmed it in my heart with a seal that the thief can’t take. Praise our Father who is all powerful all loving all knowing in all His ways.