Renewed by grace

Before I reached the day the Lord appointed to meet me, I was extremely depressed and lost. It felt like i was good for nothing and really nothing ever seemed to work out for me. It was dissapointment after dissapointment.

I remember being on drugs 3-4 days a week for a few years until one day it all went horribly wrong from taking a new drug which made me lose touch with reality. This made me hallucinate and alot of it was me thinking about God but in the physical I had no control over my body and it caused me to become aggresive and violent. After hitting the people i called friends , the police was called and i hit them also which resulted in me being arrested. I see now that God used this one experience to get me thinking about how i lost God and I could see how much i needed him.

After years of failures and suffering, I finally received eternal life when I asked for forgiveness and asked God into my heart as lord and savior. I thank the holy spirit for teaching me to pray but also the amazing work he has done in my life. I truly am a new creation in Christ.

Its very hard to choose one positive change in my life but I can say that I am finally happy and feel fulfilled in all that I have and do.

Even though i grew up in a physically abusive household and constant torment , I always had a fear that I would end up being like my Dad but through the Grace of God i am now married and have child. I am doing alot better than i thought and in the name of Jesus there is no more fear!

I know for certain that I am saved and will be in heaven. How do i know this? , I can see the majore transformation in my life that only God could have done through the finished work at the cross. Even random people find it hard to beleive i had such a dark past .