Poor in spirit, Rich in heart

Growing up I have this resentment toward my parents because we were poor. They couldn’t provide even the basic necessities of life. We struggled with food, clothing, and school supplies, and often had to borrow money just to get by. Because of this, I developed feelings of insecurity, low self-esteem, fear, and distrust toward others. Since my parents were often absent, I sought attention and affection from others, especially men. This led me into relationships that ultimately left me feeling guilty and ashamed. I also turned to religion that led me more confused about life. The traditions of praying to Saints, Mary, repetitive prayers and following religious practices didn't make sense to me.

I remember constantly praying for my father's salary from overseas to arrive on time so we could pay for my university tuition. We also had to ask others to lend us money for food, promising to pay them back once my dad’s remittance came through. There were times we couldn’t pay on time, and creditors would throw stones at our house. To cope with my frustrations, I ended up seeking comfort in relationships, hoping boyfriends would take me out to eat or cover my transport costs. Attending the 4 a.m. Advent services for nine consecutive days to get my prayers answered seemed unattainable to me.

When I encountered Jesus and accepted Him as my Savior, and began to know Him more through reading the Bible, my eyes and heart were opened to the truth. I started to appreciate, respect, and honor my parents. As a result, I believe I’ve been financially blessed and well provided for as an adult. Now, as a child of God, I have the confidence to face any challenge and relationship with assurance. I’ve learned to forgive those who have hurt me and to forgive myself for my past mistakes. Most importantly, I’ve come to understand that what matters to God is not religion, but an intimate relationship with Him."

I have now patience and loved for my parents. I have faith to conquer my fears and brave to speak up for what is right whether people will like me or not. I seek more of God's approval than men and trust Him with my future. I no longer focus in religious practices but having a relationship with Him.

As my parents are now in their senior years, they are unable to care for themselves and face challenges in communication. I send them money every month from overseas and approach their needs with patience and understanding. In my interactions with others, I share my thoughts on what I believe the Bible teaches us about church and relationships. I cherish reading His word daily and speaking to Him in prayer, feeling as though He is right beside me, listening. Above all, I take comfort in knowing that one day I will be with Him in heaven.

Just like the book of John 17:3 says "This is eternal life, that they may know you, the only true God, and Jesus Christ whom you have sent." Knowing Him in a deeper level, feels like I have eternal life here already on earth how much more in heaven.