Peace amongts the chaos

Before I came to Christ, I was angry, depressed, constanly worried and had a troubled past that weighed hevily on my conscience.

I grew up not really knowing about Jesus although I always believed there was a higher being. My step dad tried to bring us to church but my mom made sure we had our coloring books in hand. As dad stood, kneeled, sat and prayed, mom colored with us as we vented how bord we were. As I got older my life seemed to always be in some sort of chaos. My astrainged biological father was murdered when I was 10, my mom left my step dad and decided she was gay for 7 years, drugs, sex, abuse and money all became a big part of my life. I found myself being 15 and pregnant. Not too much longer after I had my daugter I was on my own and trying to create a stable life for us. All the while I used those downfalls to question any sort of faith I had. I was a product of negative surroundings and allowed that to become a part of me.

I felt a whieght lifed off my sholders when I found Jesus.

My life is now filled with, peace, joy, and grattitude.

It began by my now-husband Dustin taking my daughter to crossroads. Finaly, a year later I decided to attend church with them. That service felt like it was ment for me, something changed inside me that day. Unfortunatly, the change was short lived, infidelity struck my home. It seemed anger, hurt, resentment and pain consumed my family and we were on the verge of being completely destroyed. June 27th 2014 I prayed like never before, I cried my eyes out to Jesus and gave my heart, soul, life and situation to Him. When I was done I had the most overwhelming sence of peace. I knew right then that everything was going to be ok. The worry and anxiety was gone. I spent another night crying myself to sleep but this time it wasnt tears of pain or fear but that of peace, joy and reliefe. Five months later I became Mrs. Martinez, and 1 week after Kyrah, Dustin and I all got baptized, anouncing or faith infront of the church that showed us what it means to be loved by Jesus.

Now I am a proud Christian, I have accepted Jesus into my life and He amaze me every day as i grow stronger in my faith.