Not my will be done.

I used to love to fight.

As a young child, I could never have imagined the life I would lead, shaped by experiences that would test my spirit and resolve. Attending church was a necessity for me, serving as a beacon of hope in a world often filled with hostility. Growing up in a neighborhood where gunshots echoed like bedtime stories, I found solace and strength in my faith. It was in this tumultuous environment that I experienced my first love, a profound connection with a young girl before I even truly understood what love meant. Tragically, God decided that He loved her more and took her away in 1990, when I was just five years old. She succumbed to leukemia, and the last time I saw her, she was wheeled into our school, frail and weakened. The adults explained to us what was happening, but all I felt was a deep sense of loss. In the wake of her passing, I turned to my faith and was baptized in the name of Jesus in 1991, seeking comfort and understanding in a world that felt increasingly dark. It was during this time that my love for music blossomed. I immersed myself in listening to, playing, and creating music, finding it to be a powerful outlet for my emotions. However, in 1992, I faced another devastating blow: my grandfather passed away shortly after retiring from his job. This loss felt like a punishment for my understanding that violence was not the answer to life's challenges. Overwhelmed with grief and anger, I retaliated against God and the world through acts of violence, often blacking out and engaging in behaviors I would later regret. By around 1999, I recognized that hurting others could never heal my own brokenness. I began to redirect my energy towards the church, engaging more deeply with my faith and exploring who I truly was and what I wanted to become. I discovered my passions for music, basketball, and the joy of making others smile. In doing so, I realized that God had a purpose for my voice; He sent people into my life whom I could uplift and inspire. In 2007, I graduated from Lon Morris College with an Associate of Arts degree in Criminal Justice. This achievement marked a turning point in my life. God used this moment to guide me towards a role where I could make a meaningful impact in the lives of young students. I was placed at Carver Elementary, where I thrived as a physical education teacher, passionately connecting with the children. Despite my love for this position, God had other plans for me. He directed me towards a specific group of students who needed someone to advocate for them, and I gladly accepted the challenge. Over the past six years, I have been dedicated to fulfilling God's plan in a life skills setting, striving to empower these students in ways they had never experienced before. Witnessing their growth and progress has been immensely rewarding; many of them have gone on to explore opportunities and achieve things they once thought were beyond their reach. My journey has been one of resilience, faith, and the unwavering belief that even in the darkest times, love and purpose can triumph.

The more hell you receive the more closer to Heaven you get.

The opportunity to talk to people who think that life can’t get any Worse.

Even if you do it in private God will still reward you openly.

Thank you, God for holding molding and using me to do your wheel.