New Heart; New Being in Christ

My life revolves on depression and anger.

I grew up that my father was a drunkard. My mother was a gambler, that even reached to a point that they tried to go to casino with her friends. When I was still young I have this hatred in my heart for my parents. They always fight with each other and all of my siblings even witnessed their fight on their young age. It was always been this kind of set up until we reach high school and college days. Until we were drown on debt because of these vices they have. Until the company where my Papa was bankrupt and we have no other source of income anymore. I had to stop on my schooling and start to look for a job to support the finances in out family and even to help my siblings to finished their studies. Because of the financial problem they argue more often it leads to a fight physically. Until they decided to separate. At that moment I was so angry not only to my Papa and Mama but also I started to question God. What was my biggest sin when He allowed me to grow up on this kind of family and environment. I hate God that moment and I was so depress that leads me to do suicide. I wanted to end my life at that moment. I don't know where to get my strength. I don't know whom to talk to . Till I learned to drink alcohol, have a nightlife and go out with my friends anywhere. Because of the anger I don't talk to my parents respect is not common for me then. I was so down, I was so sad, I was so lost at that time. I don't remember how my life changed but I just found myself asking my friend to bring me with her to their church and allow me to attend their midweek service. I was a mess at that time. I was so unworthy of every blessing that God could offer. I was so lost that I couldn't find the path that God was showing. His grace saved me and allowed me to stand up again and move forward with His hands I'm holding. That time I decided to go back and offer everything to God. Brokenness was the best testimony I could share How great God is.

Grace of God.

Now that I've found Christ I have found my new identity.

New Life

Go back and repent for He will embrace you with an open arms and heart.