My testimony :)

Before I re-gave my life to Christ today, I was lukewarm struggling with a variety of mental-health issues for 5-6 years. I’ve struggled with low self-esteem, Generalized anxiety disorder, depression, and self harm for too long. I overthought all of my relationships, and gone down some bad spirals. Today I am letting everything go once again. Now is not too late.

I was destroying myself in relationships that were already good, but not putting any effort into the relationship I require most. I tried to find validation through forgetting who I am in Christ, and worsening my relationship not only with myself but with him. Today that changes.

Not only do I thank God for the relationships that he’s blessed me with, but I thank him for the relationship between him and I. I will no longer fear or people please, I am freed. God is working on me and I am at peace knowing that.

I will no longer lock out the positives God has put in my life and dwell on my faults. I’m opening that door, and I’m opening a new door for the greater things God is going to put in my life now :).

Think of it like this When I was 7, my cousin locked us out of my room. everything I liked was in there and I missed it so bad. But instead of endlessly dwelling on being locked out, I looked around and saw the rest of the house I was blessed with. And eventually the door was unlocked, and I had an entire house, I had something that was whole. It brings me peace knowing that I can have the whole goodness of God, both old and new. Amen.

Instead of leaning on fear to understand things, I ask for the discernment and wisdom directed by the Holy Spirit. And I have the discernment in this moment, that I now have eternal life. Amen.