My story

before I recieved eternal life I just felt something was missing. There had to be more

I remember living with a woman and she had kids and i worked a lot just as i do now but she would go out and party and i would stay home after work and she would roll in around 2 or 3 in te morning and would throw up from drinking to much and i just felt like this is dumb there has to be more than this.

I had actually given my life to go as a teenager at TNT. Teens night together. So i knew about god and i had heard about jesus i had previously owned bibles but never actually read one. Wait i did try and read one once while in juvenile hall but it was and still is very hard to undertsand. So back to TNT I remember the fat old guy playing guitar and singing with a pot leaf tattoo on his forarm and how much he loved god. he was so sold out for him I wanted that peace also. I asked them about it and went in the back into the kitchen and the older guys "in their 30's" led me in prayer asking god into my life. I am not 100% sure i knew what i was doing but it felt good. I did fall away from everything when peer pressure and partying and high school took over. But i always knew God was there for me. So back to living with a woman and her kids and feeling totally sad and alone and empty I felt a tugging on my heart that i need a bible and i should find a church. I was probably 33ish. So i went to church with her daughter who would go with the dad and the sermon was on tithing. Really tithing! so i went home and told the girlfriend about it and she said if you start tithing i am out of here. All I thought was really thats it. So I didnt start tithing but our relationship ended soon after that,

So I felt much better i had hope.

I had always wanted to be married but was fairly permiscuise most of my life. I wanted more. So long story short I met my now wife. It was at classic tattoo in las vegas, she had drove in her neighbor when his car was broken down and he warned her just so you know this guy is a "christian" well little did he know that was appealing to her :) so myspace stalking commenced and here we are happily married. both being "christians"

You know this is a hard statement for me I do belive i would go to heaven as i try to have a relationship with jesus and I believe in him and him rising from the dead. But every now and then I still have my doubts. I can say my life is dramatically different and I know that by following gods lead and the road he puts in front of me will bring good things but every now and then I have my doubts that maybe just maybe we will just fade to black.