My Story of God's Love

I am blessed beyond words to know that I have eternal life. God has revealed himself to me in so many ways. He's given me the experience of true inner peace, love, hope for the future, and true purpose in life. Without Him I am nothing, and with Him I have everything that I'll ever need. He is my daily bread and the well that never runs dry. He looks at me and sees purpose and greatness, even though I have failed Him in so many ways. I cannot imagine my life without His unconditional love and the absolute certainty of my eternal life in Him.

I grew up being the nerdy kid. Really tried hard to fit in, but never quite could. I lived out of an insecure place for most of my life; thinking that I would never be good enough to accomplish anything, to be with a good man, to get my dream job, etc. I walked through life with that mentality. It got me into a lot of trouble - letting men use me and take advantage of me because I was too insecure to stand up for myself; getting drunk with friends in a desperate attempt to fit in; believing that none of my dreams would ever come to fruition. I had the dream to become a Music Therapist. So I auditioned for the program at CSU and had to try-out 3 times in order to get in (the maximum amount of times they let you try-out is 3). I really struggled throughout my time in that major. Luckily I did in fact graduate and go on to get my Certification and even start my own Music Therapy Private Practice. However, something occurred my last year of schooling. I was, as I said, struggling my way through school and came to a point of absolute brokenness before the Lord, unsure of how I would make it through. The Lord took me in His arms and whispered in my ear, the exact way He saw me. It was a love letter like no other, and He began to tell me His purpose for my life. From that day forward I lived out of that purpose. I changed my mind to conform to His, I changed my view of myself to conform to His view of me. That was 2 years ago, and I've never lived out of an insecure mentality since. My life will never be the same.

The peace and love God gave me that day is that same peace and love that I carry with me today. Not only ensuring my faith in Him, but ensuring my eternal salvation. I would truly be nothing without Him. I was living out of mentality that He didn't want for me. He wanted to show me that I was redeemed through the blood of Jesus. And I truly believe that I am and that because of His blood, I have the privilege of spending eternity with Him.