My story is in the Bible

I wanted to die again

In 1994 I took my life and remember being dead. Dark and silent, no pain only peace. I did not even think of family. The physical body was left behind and all that remained was my soul. The spirit world where I was is where we wait for judgement day. To me it was the most beautiful place I've ever been. Of course, eventually I would go to the pit of fire.

I found a Church (Faith Family Church, Billings, MT) and when they asked for people who had not received Jesus I went forward. I believe there were 13 or 14 of us that day.

Seeing as how I had died once by my own hand and had a Resurrection. Today I have accepted Jesus and when I died it is my understanding that I go straight to Heaven. Most of my birth family will not be there, but Heaven is a place of Joy so I do not believe I will grieve there for them. Imagine getting to see God and Jesus, counting how many angles there are.

After my suicide over losing my parental rights, I prayed and turned the kids over to God. They were adopted by a pastor and his wife, being a church, I could go see them. Really in God's eyes I was stealing them back. Eventually my mind got foggy, and I became paralyzed in bed. Two friends came over from recovery and one said I better pray. I did and heard God. He was not happy with me. He wanted me to stick to the agreement, I refused. There was more pressure on me and eventually I agreed. Suddenly my mind cleared, and I could get out of bed. I looked at my friend and laughed like a mad man, I could read his mind. I told him what he was thinking. "Which way is Pete going to go?" The other one there said you weren't supposed to do it that way. I suddenly changed from being selfish and self-centered to wanting to help others. At church I was told that is a peak of moved by the Spirit. Later there was a second one, but that was the strongest. As for your presentation when you said the first thing people do when they are filled by the spirit they tell people about Jesus, I didn't either time. The man in the white shirt speaking from Helena said Intelligence does not help was wrong on that. Of course, the devil has it to use against me too. Why both times I did not tell people about Jesus was because these events happened 20 years before I walked in the church doors. God is real I got to hear him. I came back from the dead. Last summer I prayed to him over my hernia and two doctors checked and it is gone.

I look at it this way. I believe it strong enough that "I am wasting time here when I could be there." I tried to kill myself and I cannot go out that way to get there. Pastor says it is strong in me, it took some time to realize what he meant. One day doing my daily readings I came across. Psalms 30 number 3. Which basically says, O'Lord you took a soul from the grave and gave it life, so it did not go to the pit. Pastor said to me the spirit world is real and when you came back you brought more back with you. When I figured that out, I thought I might live longer than I want to.