My Personal Testimony

I'm grateful to Jesus, for loving me, and accepting me as I am. Even if I am not accepted by others in this world, I will always be welcomed in The Kingdom of Heaven. Because I have repented for my sins, and God has forgiven me, I know I am loved and have ever lasting eternal life. My love for other people, now shows forth the compassion that God has given me in order to help them through the rough times they are going through because I have already experienced it; and no longer live in that life any longer. So it helps me bridge the gap between their trials and tribulations and God's Grace.

I was raised in an Assembly of God Church when I was young, and had always knew about the concept of a Greater Power. My Mother, was the only one who had been totally devoted to God, and was a Huge Role Model in my Life. Because of my mother, I learned how to pray and know the stories of Jesus. As I grew older, I strayed away from Religion or the Love of my God. At a young age; I was molested, raped, and introduced to sexual immorality. All throughout my life, I was confronted by alternative life styles that were no interests to me. I was not sure why it had always came to my attention, but I knew that I only was interested in women. The fact that I know that homosexuality is wrong, doesn't make me upset, mad, or angry at those who have transgressed against me. I forgive those people. As I have also asked for forgiveness against those who I have wronged in my life. Because I was introduced to Sex at such a young age, I was always interested in having sex with women. That Lust had over taken my life; leading me to have multiple partners in life. All throughout my life I have dealt with suicidal tendencies, drugs, and alcohol. I have dabbed in it all, but never have been addicted to it. I can only praise God for that. But I had a very abusive alcoholic father who had always gotten drunk and physically abused my mother, and us kids. We spent every year or two, moving from place to place, or city to city. Always running from my Father. I never truly had enough time to make friends, although I have met so many people throughout my time of growing up. It has left me without knowing what it is to have a stable home life. I wanted to go into College to make something of myself, but I was lured to going into the Military. I was enticed, I felt like I had no say in the matter. The reason I never had a voice was because of my Father. And Even after my mom separated and divorced my dad, My step-dad felt like The Army was the best way for me to grow up. I didn't want to go in the Army, but I did because that's what my step-father wanted for me. I just wanted a chance to be a kid. I wasn't ready to grow up, because I was never able to live. By "live" I mean be a kid and have a normal life. Even when choosing my Job for the Army, I didn't even get the choices of Jobs I wanted to get, The Person giving me the choices made it seem like I was choosing a really great job as a Truck Driver. Again, I didn't have a Voice to speak up. While Serving, I've had several accidents, injuring my shoulder, my neck, and my lower back while being Airborne. I also have close calls with a Suicide Driver while serving in the military during an overseas assignment. The Army left me Disabled. I've lost my Wife, due to her cheating on me while I was overseas, and after getting out of the Army. And I have lost my Ex-fiance from the loss of our twins, and one more after that. I have dealt with Death, not just from my babies, but also my family. In a 7 year period I have loss over 10 family members. It's a great burden to bare. But I have only to Thank Jesus for giving me the Strength to get me through those times of struggles. I have dealt with depression for over 12 years, But instead of living in Condemnation, Jesus brought me out of it by giving me the wisdom to know my babies wait for me in Heaven. And just knowing that my Babies are already in Heaven with our Lord and Savior is more than enough to give me the Faith I need to believe. My Heavenly Father, has also given me so many miracles in my life. He has taken and saved me from Death. Saved me from Depression, and Saved me from a Mass that was in my nasal passage that is no longer present. He has Saved me from Homelessness. Jesus, has given opportunity after opportunity to make amends with Him and though I have backslid several times, My God loves me enough to say: "You are Forgiven, Go, and Sin No More." So it is my desire to live by Faith and show my compassion for others by leading them to God's Grace, and accept Jesus as I have; because I know that Heaven is Real and God is not dead. He is alive and Living within me!!

According to Scripture, John 6:47, Acts 16:31; Knowing, Trusting, and Believing that I have given my life to Jesus, and allowing Him to reside in me, I have a Eternal Life by Given my Life to Him.