my personal tertimony

before i received eternal life i was afraid of death,i had alot of guilt,shame,i was angry,i had a lot of fear i felt loneliness i was grieveiving ,i had worries,anxiety,i grew up in a cristian home but i really didnt have a relationship with christ i knew things like all the wrongs i shouldnt be doing like the worldly things no lying no stealing but not a relationship with christ i did pray to god a lot i didnt know my purpose in life i was sexually abused by my uncle at a very young age throughout a period of 7 years i was scared and ashamed of telling anyone i dropped out of school and became pregnant with my first daughter at 17 that same year i got pnamonia went into the hospital i fell into a coma i was near death my family was having to decide weather they should diconect my machines i was at 30 percent of life my mom started prayers there were our family church praying for me a lot of people were praying christ never left my side he was there but i still couldnt see it i woke up from my coma 3 months later i was supposed to be a vegtable when i woke up but i started walking and talking little by little again how wonderful and gracious is that still after that i wasnt attending church i still didnt have a connection with our father i got pregnant again with twins boy and girl brought babies home as premies i lost my son of 3 months with sids crib death i think at that moment i had lost all hope i was angry i had a lot of emptiness inside of me i fell into a very dark place in my life i started drinking partying i was careless i was sleeping around a lot with random men i was so lost i then moved to arkansas with my 2 girls and got into an abusive relationship with a man that had 2 boys we married were together for 11 years i had become so fearful of him he was very controlling and abusive i beacme a very bitter inside i little bit before i left him i got a call from child services that he had sexually abused my younger daughter throughout all the time we were together i packed our things a left the home with my daughters the next day he commited suicide so there i was lost,angryi was in shock so much that i fell to my knees and cried out to god i didnt know what to if i should go to the funeral i had help raise his two boys i loved them also like my own after my suplication i came downstairs a woman was at the door i didnt know her she was a friend of a friend she looks at me and hugs me and says im a messenger from god and said he wants you to go to the funeral he loves you imediatly felt comfort in my heart and peace i started attending a church after that but i still wasnt going as mucha time after that i met my husband now jose we got together but i was still doing wordly things like drinking and partying my youngest daughter started going in and out of mental facilities due to self harm i had so much fear of loosing her i did a lot of praying through that time i faced a lot of guilt i blamed myself for her pain we then moved to houston tx we started attending downtown first baptist that was when both me and my husband gave our lives to christ we got married and baptized but a week after i got baptized i had an attack from satan i fell into a drepression so deep i was beleiving satans lies he had a control over me his demons were attacking me i was hearing voices i felt everyone around me was taunting me laughing at me i went into a mental clinic i felt dead inside again i started praying to christ asking why this a person in the mental hospital gave me a book it was book of psalms i was there one week christ took me out from there little by little christ started making me new again and working in me he is still working in our family but how beautiful is that throughout all those dark moments christ has always been there to pick me up every time he has done wonders in our familiy my husband also gave his life to christ my daughter is doing better christ gave another bundle of joy after having a lot of miscarages in the past i was unable to concieve when i meet my husband christ gave us little skyler i have so much to be thankful for christ is changing me little by little through faith and grace there is a verse that i love it is deuteronomy6:4 it says the lord our god is one love your the lord your god with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strenghth i always ask christ to teach me to love others the way he loves us this is one of the biggest commands i try to follow .

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after receiving eternal life i started to want to learn more about the word so that i can share it with non beleivers.

now that i have eternal life i can say that i feel no fear i know christ is with me walking every step i take.

even through out all the midst i have faith christ will deliver us from all the pain and sin.

like it says in titus 3:4 but with kindness and love of our god our savior appeared he saved us not becouse of the rightouse things we had done,but becouse of his mercy