My personal story

Before I received Jesus Christ. I felt alone there was a piece of me that I felt like something was missing, I felt depressed, anxious, and felt rejected by several people. I'm suffering from PTSD. I felt empty. I felt like I didn't have a purpose. I felt like I was a disappointment. I had several insecurities. I still suffer from some of these things. I felt like I wasn't enough.

I grew up from the age of 1 to 6 years old without any holidays. I grew up with no mom in my life she was in and out of my life my whole life. I learned how to cook really young because my dad was at work trying to get money so he could pay bills. We went to church but I didn't understand what they were talking about and my dad told me I should get baptized and I did but my home life was bad. I grew up in a small community in Conway, Arkansas the trailer park we lived in was 100 Brookside Dr. I grew up my whole life being bullied when I got into the 5th grade I started acting up I had to go to Conway school for an alternative school. I saw my bio mom in the middle of 5th and 6th grade and then she left not even 15 minutes after seeing me and my brothers. When I went to school the next day I went to the 2 story building and was about to jump out the window but someone stopped me. Then I went home that night and tried to hang myself. My life was tough with my bio mom in and out of our lives. I went into a facility for 6 months without talking to my parents for 4 months. It was tough but I tried to stay strong. I came back home and started going to church. I came closer to god when I was 12 and then as I got older my depression got worse but I tried to keep it together but I just came out to God and My family and people I trust I told them about something I'm suffering from PTSD for and no one believed me so I let it all out and started to feel bad and thought that it was my fault because I was sexually abused and to this day I have asked God to help me through this situation. I have tried to end my life 4 times since Christmas of this year. But, one thing I love about this is that I haven't given up.

Someone shared with me how to have eternal life with Jesus christ

Now that I have eternal life with Jesus Christ I am not disappointed, I love myself for who I am and how Jesus made me, I am not so depressed, I have a father to run to, I love others and tell them about christ.

I have not yet given up. I have been hiding my emotions but I talked to someone about how I felt and now I'm helping others that have been through the same thing.

Better yet, the full life that Jesus offers lasts forever. If I were to die right now, I know for certain that i'd be in heaven with God.