MY JOURNEY THAT SAVED ME

Before I received eternal life I always felt guilty and ashamed that I committeed adultery. I always felt loneliness and grief. I felt I wasn't worthy of my husband's love and respect. I also struggled with addiction to numb this hurt I felt inside. I became a really bitter and angry person Because I was angry at myself for what I've done. For years I've felt emptiness and let myself go. I almost let my marriage go I thought my husband would never want me back . When he did come back I told the truth only to find myself being rejecting by him. I love him so much I ask God for forgiveness and please let my husband forgive me as well.

My husband came back into my life 2 years ago and encouraged me to find help for my addiction and counseling for my grief and depression. It hasn't been easy it's been a very long journey we hardly talk anymore and I pray that God will give my husband and I a second chance at life and our marriage. My husband has been incarcerated for 15 yrs so already I struggled with the separation and loss of him. But I am trusting in God's plan for us to remain humble give us hope to see change in our marriage. I hope to see forgiveness and give me the freedom of my past. And give my husband the power to change his life.

I began searching for a program for my addiction but none of the rehab centers that I've found had wat I was looking for. I am battling not only addiction but my marriage is falling apart, I also struggle with major depression, anger issues, homelessness, umemployment, I found myself giving up on life. I always listen to 90.1 radio station I was listening one day and it gave me an idea I started to look for churches I needed to become closer to God as I was browsing I started to see how much support there really was. So I started to look for celebrate recovery for I have managed to be clean and sober and felt this was the best way to remain this way. And as I got further into my findings I saw marriage ministries, women groups and counseling all in one. I believe it was good who lead me to these searches and now I found my home. I was to be baptised feel pure again.

Now that I have eternal life I can now be at peace . I can be humble .

I can now give my marriage to God I will will put in his hands the problems I face so that I can continue to be brave and prospertative. I will have faith that if God wants this marriage to be he has control and I will now remain humble and trust that God will handle it.

I will not fear death I will trust and believe that I will be saved and sent to heaven now that I am reborn.