Looking for hope.

I was self destructive and depressed. Struggling with loss and selling drugs and partying to cope.

In 2009 I lost my mother to cancer. It was the first time I really thought about death and the concept of never seeing her again was agonizing. I was already smoking and drinking but I wanted to be numb so I just coasted. Doing anything to distract me from feeling. During that time God lead friend of mine to witness to me about Jesus.

When my friend prayed with me the reality of who Jesus was and who God was became real to me all at once.

My life has lead to growing in my relationship with Jesus, preaching and teaching and discipling others.

Since coming to faith I have hope that I will.see my loved one who passed in faith again. This has helped me with grief and loss and changed the trajectory of my life.

There is a security in Christ that i have that lets me know that have gained a father and still will see my mother again. That I am his and he loves me.