Light in the Darkness.

I was selfish. I lived for myself only. I cared about no one else but me.

I did unspeakable, hurtful things to people who loved and cared about me the most, as long as I benefited, I didn't care if I hurt or disappointed people.

I was raised in a Christian home, but I still chose to care about myself. I was in such a dark hateful place I had no where else to look but up. I realized this was all by Gods plan. In order for me to want to become closer to Jesus, I had to want it so bad by living in darkness. He allowed me to grow closer to him by my suffering. I accepted Christ at a very young age, but I wasnt living it. I wanted to live a Christ life. So, on my knees in tears, at 34 years old, I asked Jesus to come live in my heart again.

I have such peace in my life now. I am blessed beyond measure. I see life so differently now. I see Jesus in everything around me.

I do not fear tomorrow. I know, even in rougher times, there is Godly purpose in everything that happens. If someone would have asked me 10 years ago if I would have ever imagined myself being a music worship leader, or playing for a christian ministry band...or even having a Godly centered marriage, I would have laughed.

There is not one shred of doubt, that when the day comes, that I pass, in that exact moment, I will be standing with Jesus Christ.