Jesus Saves!

I'm so thankful for our Lord and savior Jesus Christ and the price he paid for our sins, knowing now that I live by hope has given me a different perspective about life. I love experiencing Joy, forgiveness, patience, and many other things that the Lord gives us. When I had sorrow he replaced it with joy, when I had hate he replaced it with love. When I had fear he replaced it with boldness. I no longer trusted in myself, but I had confidence in the LORD. This only came by prayer and believing and I encourage anyone who wants to be set free from the enemy to cry out to the Lord and accept him as the savior of the world.

When I was a little girl around the age 9 or ten I began to touch myself in area I shouldn't. I grew up in a household where God was talk about everyday, we even went to church. My Dad was physically abusive to me, my siblings, and my mom. By the time I turned 11 years old my mom and dad were doing terrible. I would go to school everyday and get teased because I would smell bad. This type of stuff caused me to continue to touch myself, it was the only thing at that time that made me feel good. By the age of 11 I was taken from my parents CPS was called and all I remember is that I had to move with family members that I barely knew. This is when the sexual abuse began in my life and I have forgiven the person who done the things to me because God has forgiven me. The boy was a year older than me and when I first moved there he was extremely nice to me. This type of treatment was unusual for me because I was so use to being mistreated. Then the sexual abuse began he would make me do sexual things that I never seen or done before. I was so afraid of him so I would do whatever he told me to do. I knew that if I tried tell his mom or dad they would take his word over mines. At age 16 I finally had enough he tried he usual thing and all I know is that I just began to scream "Get off of me" like a bunch of boldness came over me. Long story short his parents did not believe me and so the abuse still continued on after that. At the age of 18 I was finally of age so I decided to move out. when I moved out I began to drink and how I got hold on some liquor I would steal it from my job. I had a boyfriend and the lustful spirit that was taking over my body had me wanting to please men. At the age of 21 I met a man who was a few years older than me and he also had a lustful spirit in him. The whole time I thought I was in love, but this was so far from love and I begin to realize it. I thought to myself will anyone ever love me. So That's when the suicidal thoughts came. I would think things like "what's the point of living on an earth where there is no love" I was totally convinced by the enemy that I didn't belong on this earth. Finally I had enough and all I remember was waking up in the hospital bed with a tube down my throat. Thankfully I recovered from that and I was still dating the same guy who is the father of my daughter. One day I prayed to God and asked him to remove me from the relationship I was in if that not where I should be. GOD was on my side and I didn't even realize it. By the age of 24 I stop having sexual urges and tried to abstinent for 2 years. I still had the lust in me and this was my secret sin,it led me to watching porn and still wanting to be with a man sexually. At the age of 26 I ended up in another sexual relationship. I could never wrap around my fingers at the time why the same situation kept occurring. Finally someone invited me to go to church I was OK with it. Deep down inside there was apart of me that wanted God to save me from this horrific battle I was in. I decided to get baptized and when I came out of the water all I was thinking about my whole life and immediately I began to speak in tongues. I could not help what was coming out of my mouth. I felt so sorry for all the things I've done. I still had struggles with the lustful spirit in me and one day I smoked my cigarette and laid on the bed. I fell into a deep sleep and in my dream I heard the Lord telling me to quit sinning. I woke up and this feeling was so amazing I couldn't resist it. I had to be obedient to what I heard.

After the dream I began to stop smoking, drinking, sex, and many other things. The Holy spirit allowed me to confess my sins and most importantly I have confessed that Jesus Christ is the Savior of the world. Once this happened I felt so free and I no longer hated people for the past. Jesus gives gifts that will last eternally these are the things I desire now. I pray that many will come to Christ so they will not miss out on eternal life. John 14:6 Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. God bless you all!