Jesus SAVED ME !

I am glad I chose Jesus because the there are things in my life that God had brought me out of, that only He could bring me out of and I am grateful for that.

When I was going through puberty, I because addicted to pronohraphy to the point where I'd be watching porn and masturbating everytime I felt bored or whenever I have free time. During this heavy addiction I started talking to girls and so on. In the midst of this, I started having same-sex attractions. Really this is something no man wants to happen to them at ALL! But yes I had them at this time. I was literally torn apart by these attraction so much so that everything they will come up I watch porn nd masturnate to get them out of my brain. Through-out this time I was still a young Christian at the age of 13 or so, young in the faith. So this cycle continued.... When I was around 15 I went to youth camp and I was being prayed for by this lady (she was a pastor with a prophetic anointing). She asked me if I was troubled with the spirit of homosexuality. To be honest this shocked me as I have never accepted it before and I always thought, yeah this will pass this will pass. But I said yes because it was waht it was and I couldn't deny it and she prayed and prayed and she said you will receive the Holy Spirit. ( I was praying from I was baptised lord please remove anything that is hindering me from recoeving the holyspirit) and she said to me that it was what was preventing me from recieving the holy spirit. Tears upon tears. And after she prayed she said that u will receive the holyspirit with the evidence of speaking I'm tongues. And yes I did receive with the evidence of speaking in tongues the March of 2019 in our youth week. Since then I haven't shared this testimony because of fear of what people will think of me and because of dear in my heart and PRIDE. But I will continue to share this testimony and bless the lives of others. Since then the Lord has turned around my mind and filled me with resilience to fight against these thoughts! It's not only that I was suicidal for a while. Planned my suicide more than once. I used to cut myself. But God! Glory be to God! There's so much more testimonies I have so much more to this testimony as well but I'm sharing the short version.

Funny enough, prior to these happenings when I was younger, I saw and beard alot of testimonies of other people and I said God I want a big testimony, one which will move people's hearts and I belove that this plus the many more testimonies God has given me are those BIG TESTIMONIES BECAUSE I SERVE A BIG GOD! There is nothing worth more that could ever come close to the ltesence of the Lord. Now I know that God got me! And through it all He has been carrying me and I am on the road to eternal life. Yes it is rough and rocky but I will persevere.