Jesus My Joy for Eternity

Before I received Jesus as my Savior and eternal life I had a heavy load of guilt ,shame and fear that kept me in a depressive state of mind.

I remember graduating from college which should have been one of the defining happiest days of my life and it wasn't. My reality was that it was one of the most depressing days of my life because all of my achievements did not take away my fears, my doubts, my shame, my guilt, my depression.

It was at the lowest point of my life that I cried out to God and told him I was sorry for what I'd done and I wanted to change . It was the beginning of the journey that led me to his Son Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior of my life.

Now that I have the Assurance of eternal life in Jesus Christ, my savior and the purpose of my entire being. That depression Has Lifted .God has given me his Holy Spirit to combat any attempts of the enemy to drag me down . My happiest moments on this Earth have been serving God.

One day going through a drive-thru I was filled with God's peace and presence little did I know that 15 minutes later I would be experiencing a miscarriage of a baby that we have been praying for for over 15 years .What should have been the saddest day of my life and if I hadn't had Jesus would have been a severe time of depression , ended up being a moment of intimacy with the God who created me and loves me and had purpose even in such a sorrowful event.

I don't know all that God has planned for me in the days ahead but no matter what this life brings I am confident in Jesus in his love and his gift of salvation and in the joy of knowing that one day I will be with the author and Perfecter of my life my joy and my faith.