HE is With You and Giving You Signs

Before I received eternal life I always had a feeling of having to fight for everything. I always felt alone and afraid. I hid my real self from others, afraid they may view me as weak.

The event that change my life was my mother's death. I felt utterly destroyed. I felt so much pain that at times I couldn't even breathe. I felt isolated and was having some dark thoughts during the 3 year period of my salvation. Yeah, 3 years. My mother always said I was stubborn. But God started sending me signs to let me know his love and my mothers were protecting me. God sent my mother to me in my dreams telling me of things that hadn't happened yet; only to see it later come true. At first it was feeling her kiss on my cheek; which I easily dismissed due to my grief. But the dream that brought me to God was when my mother told me she was upset over her car being stolen and wrecked. The next morning my sister called me to say my mother's car was indeed stolen and totalled. Future dreams were of my mother assuring me she at peace and was always with me and that God loved me. I had other dreams in past before my mother's passing where God came to me. I was at my grandmother's house. There was a crowd of people gathered outside looking up at the sky saying Jesus was coming. I looked up and the word Jesus floated by in the shape of clouds. Then the clouds turned into two tall trees: a woman and a man. The man pointed at us and said that one of us has sinned. I fell to my knees and asked for forgiveness. The man lifted me up. Then a gun shot rang out. I jumped in front of it and was shot. I woke up in an ambulance and the man (jesus) was in the ambulance with me. He to told me because i would die for him he was giving me back my life. Then I woke up. The next work. It was a beautiful sunny day. My CO came and told me a tree had fallen on my car. You would think since God basically beat my car with a sign of his presence that would have been my defining moment. That dream and the tree on my car always stayed in the back of my mind. But my salvation was my mother's last gift to me. Through her death and God's mercy I am a Christian blessed by God.

I am still a work in progress. Some days its 2 steps forward. I have found forgiveness. I have let anger and grief ( well..Im still working at it.) im happy now. I feel grounded and connected. I wake up giving thanks for the blessings in my life and they are abundant. I was surrounded by people who wished me harm and opened up doors and remove me from them. I have have the job of my dreams, beautiful daughters and amazing grandchildren. God has truly blessed me.

Now that I have eternal life, I dont fear those who were set out to harm me. They still try their attacks by lies, but if God is with me, who can be against me? I have learned to lay my problems at God's feet. I no longer let it lay on my shoulder. God is my vindicator.

As stated before, I was working at a job surrounded by people who worked daily to get me fired and my my work day as horrible as possible. I was going to quit last year and walk away from it all. I prayed to God to lead me in the path he wants me to go. Within a few months of quitting, I receive a call about a new job classification that opened up. God was directing my path and I had to keep faith even though my thoughts were telling me to quit. Well, I took the job. It was with the same company, but was away from those who wished to do me harm. And as a bonus, it was a promotion in salary.

On a final note, my mother's last visit to my dreams, she told my my days were few. I'm okay with that because I know I have eternal life through Jesus Christ. Whether my days are few or many the great I Am is with me.