Grace Over Mistakes

God's grace overcomes any mistake I could ever make, and I would be in darkness without it.

In the past I had trouble with dating and putting God first at the same time. When it came to someone I liked, I would date who I wanted to, even if I knew that they weren't really a Christian. During one relationship in particular, there were several red flags of emotional abuse. He would belittle me constantly, telling me I needed to gain weight, wear more make up, dye my hair, buy different clothes. On top of that, he pressured me constantly to do physical things I wasn't comfortable with. I kept making excuses for his behavior, and in turn, I was changing. I was stooping down to his level and using harsh and inappropriate language at him in order to defend myself, and I was becoming materialistic and worldly. Morals and friendships that were important to me before were put on the back burner for the next big thing. I started lying, trying alcohol illegally, cursing, sneaking around, and trying to get a fake ID. After a while, I got tired of myself and realized how superficial and unhappy I had become in just two months. So one day I prayed to God that no matter what happened in my life, I wanted to come back to Him again fully. Three days later, my boyfriend broke up with me. It was very heartbreaking because I liked him so much, but shortly after that, I reached a high point in my relationship with God and learned how to fully trust in Him. I felt so ashamed of who I was, and cried when I was asking God for forgiveness. I'm so thankful for His mercy because my life came back to normal, and God showed me that I could be myself and feel loved at the same time.

I see how God's grace is bigger than any mistake I could ever make even now, and His forgiveness and mercy are what tell me that He loves me so much that He doesn't want to let me go. I know that I am washed clean and have eternal life only in Christ.