From Rejected to Loved

Before I received eternal life I was consumed with Fears of rejection.

My life had been dominated by Abandonment/Rejection and Fear - I have a hard time trusting people. I learned growing up relationships were unstable and can’t be relied on. I was anxiously attached, starving for love, and a connection but always waiting for something bad to happen, believing i was unworthy of love,which was reinforced by repeated abandonment/rejection. This belief was only increased by the negative criticism being told I was “too sensitive” or that it was "all in my head". This lead to high levels of anxiety, fear, loneliness and isolation. I've felt so Conflicted between what i was being told and how I was feeling, which increased my confusion, insecurity, and inner turmoil.

I cried out in my garage one evening desperately asking God to forgive me for rejecting him all these years and for only crying out and wanting him when I was in need. I asked him to please change me, and confessed I needed him to take control and save me.

Now that I have eternal life I TRUST that Jesus Christ will never reject or abandon me, I am worthy, loved, and forgiven!

During a recent Panic Attack I reached out to family for help, instead of finding comfort I I felt utterly defeated by their rejection, and lack of understanding. Instead of solely relying on others, I Now Trust Jesus Christ to give me the comfort, wisdom, and strength I am longing for. Jesus says "I will always love you, and never forsake you".

I Trust that God knows my heart and he promised I have eternal life, because he is a promise keeper.