Forming a relationship with God

Before I formed relationship with God and receiving eternal life I used to think I'm not good enough for God.

I used to belittle myself and thought God can never love me because of my sins. I always went to church but didn't have a relationship with God. I remember when a friend of mine was explaining to me the importance of repentance and being born again, I was very resistant and felt that I was not ready to be baptised cause I needed to be good first. My understanding of who Christ is was very little. I trusted God for certain things in my life and not others. In many times I would be in relationships that never lasted, lonely, trying to figure things out by myself. I also had low self-esteem always thinking that I'm not good enough to have certain things in life. In a nut shell: I lacked peace in my life.

My friend "Thobeka" didn't give up telling me about the grace of God. I then decided to receive Jesus as my Lord and saviour, I got baptised. Since then my life changed completely. I discovered a Father I never had. God became a Father and not just God. I started trusting in Him about anything and everything. I found peace and my life changed for the best.

Now that I have Christ Jesus as my saviour, my life is at peace, I'm continuously gaining more understanding of Him and I have learnt to cast my worries to Him. I'm enjoying trusting in God it has brought me so much peace and confidence in my life.

Late last year (2013) my cousin whom I have been helping out with money for food at college told me that His Tuition Bursary will be cut off as of January 2014. That meant I had to pay for his fees from my own pocket and I when I looked at my budget it seemed impossible to help him. I prayed to God and said: Lord please make a way for me to assist my cousin. He needs to go to school and it seems like I'm the only option left for Him. Beginning of the year when He had to register we made a plan and he registered. From there I was able to pay for Him without me being compromised. I do not know where God cut that portion from my salary but somehow He did and I am managing well.

It is such an Honour to always be in the presence of the Lord. To trust Him to fight my battles and to know that He loves me. With the gift of eternal life I'm very confident that when I die I will go to Heaven.