Finding love

Jf you've ever heard the phrase, looking for love in all the wrong places.....well, that was me. At the age of 33, I had married my 4th husband which was about to end in either divorce or my death. Using drugs and alcohol no longer eased the pain of rejection, loneliness, guilt and shame I had felt for so long.

One of my darkest days I can remember thinking how disappointed God must've been with me and I would cry out asking God not to give up on me.

My husband and I separated for a few weeks which gave me time to think about everything past, present and future. I knew I wanted a different life, a happy life free of the guilt and shame I had felt for so long. I was ready to give it all up and ready to let Jesus lead me the rest of the way so I asked Him to forgive me and to be my Savior.

After I prayed, I knew I had the assurance of having eternal life. God had delivered me from the addiction of drugs/alcohol. He changed both my husband and I so that He could mend our marriage. He taught me how to forgive and how to not be bitter and not to have resentment. He's been with me this whole journey and has never left me, He's given me peace in my heart and gives me His power and strength when I feel weak and I cant go on. He gives me comfort when my heart feels broken and shelters me when I'm afraid. He provides for me everything thing I need. He's forgiven me.

All the time I spent looking for that one true love; I found in Jesus, He's been there the whole time waiting for me and has never stopped loving me.

The life and love that Jesus offers doesn't compare with anyone or anything this world has to offer. Trusting in Jesus Christ alone through faith has given me the assurance that if I was to die right now, I would go to heaven to be with Him for an eternal lifetime!