Felt like a little kid

I can't wait for eternal life with God because I know that His unconditional love overpowers the moments that I don't even love myself.

There are several moments in my life where I will look back and wonder what is wrong with me. I used to think a lot about my parents divorce. I would sit there constantly wondering if it was my fault that they got divorced. I would always wonder what did I do wrong, how is this my fault even though they got divorced when I was like two years old. I spent several years crying because I didn't understand, but I didn't want to bring it up to my parents because they both seemed so happy in their new relationships. Finally, I started to pray about it then I began talking to my dad. After praying and talking for several years I was able to love myself a little more. There were several years there, however, that I hated myself because I thought that I ruined my parents life. I am glad now that I know God loves me no matter what and that my parents just split because they no longer loved each other, not because of anything I did or didn't do.

I have been saved since I was 8, but only got baptized about a year ago. I never felt sure what would happen to me during those 8 years, but now I feel God's endless love and forgiveness towards me even when I screw up. Feeling this makes know that God has a spot reserved for me up there.