Extra-Ordinary God

Before I received eternal life, I was full of insecurities, I have a very low self-esteem, and I felt that I don't even have any purpose on life.

I remember when my mother said that I was a failure, she let me lived in despair and loneliness. She always tells me that I should die on the first day that I was born. I am an illegitimate daughter of my father in my (not real) mother's sister. She let me feel that I am a mistake. Every day I felt like dying. I don't even have friends nor someone who can listen to my self. Every day I am just wishing that I should die also. My real mother died when gave birth to me. She left me to pay for all her debt to the real family of my father. I was verbally abused when I was a child until now. Every words that my (not real) mother saying about me, I am putting it on my heart and mind.

Then someone came into my life and share how can I received an eternal life.

Now that I have eternal life, I am longer rely on the things that my mother says about me. I am a happy, free-spirited, blessed, have God on my life now.

Last Christmas, when my father got his vacation and spent it with us, my mother keep on telling negative things about me, upon hearing those words, I don't felt like one. I let her do her favorite job and forgive her that day. I just realized that having God, my life is contented and happy.

After knowing Him, I am certain now that If I am going to die right, I know that I will be with Him.