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Down the Q hole and back.
From elections to covid to religion and Straight to Jesus. Searching for truth and wrestling with God for a year. Attacked by demons in my dreams and crying out in my sleep. Buried in a pit of inequity, pride, lust, self-righteousness, shame, resentment, and plenty else. I finally cried out for Him, and He brought me back to life. Glory be to God and our Lord Jesus Christ.
The immediate time before I was saved I was on a deep spiral of alcohol, some drugs, and conspiracy theories. Strictly on a deep search for truth in a world where it’s hard to find. I was led to false truths that gave me false hope. And led to some real truths that only gave short term relief. Blessed with a good family, good job, and home. Had all the things I needed other of this world, but still felt something missing. I was led so deep I began to contemplate suicide.
Wanting to know the truth of politics, wanting to know the truth about covid, all led to a deep dark search for truth.
I began to cry out to God on the inside, knowing I had fallen to deep and had nowhere else to go. The moment I surrendered the fight, He lifted the weight of it all in a nanosecond. Split second cured me of alcoholism after 4 years of whiskey everyday. Not a withdrawal to speak of.
I have a new heart, and new conscience. Also I’ve been lifted of all past resentment, past shame, grief, and weight of my own sin.
I was able to forgive the people that caused me the most grief. The Lord gave me the strength to let go of the abuse and forgive them. I can live peacefully even though I lost my best friends to suicide twice and was abused by cousins at a young age. Because we all go through things, I’m no better than anyone else, and deserve no more or less. All the hard things that we go through got me closer to God. Because He was always there helping me, whether I knew it or not, and I pray He will be there next time as well.
I once seeked drugs, alcohol, parties, and those all gave me euphoria most of the time, a high that seemed to bring joy. But no amount of any drug could come even close to the feeling of The Holy Spirit burning you of your iniquity. I’m still a broken, weak, filthy vessel in my flesh. But that’s the old me, now transformed and living everyday in repentance, through faith in Christ Alone. I know 100% that Jesus is Lord, for He blessed me with his presence even though I didn’t deserve it, I pray all receive him and we all find repentance and call out to Him.
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