Death to Life

I was in the pits of complete darkness,

I always had a good upbringing, I was a normal kid and had some friends. It took a dramatic turn four years ago, I was experiencing extreme social anxiety, I got homeschooled, I couldn’t focus on the work online, lost all my friends, over the years I had eating disorders, hallucinations. I had to wear black out glasses to interact with a person outside close family, We was going to get a diagnosis for autism. My thoughts wondered to dark places. I also was engaging with tarot cards, astrology, new age practices. I had sleep paralysis a lot.

I found out Jesus was there waiting for me the whole time, my hope was found!

I became a new creation in Jesus

A lot happened over a few weeks. I was having huge revelations in my mind, it feels blurry now. I snapped out of the hallucination and started to realise how dark my life was. Just a few months ago Jesus showed me a way, I felt curious in nature and how it’s created, the beauty of life. The first time in years I could take off those glasses to not fear rejection. I was happy and peaceful mostly, i helped my family. Without that I was lost I quickly went back to my old ways, Now I’m saved and I realised that was Jesus showing me a helping hand, I am now free from crippling social anxiety, hate of people, suicidal, self harm etc. I can live! I am going to go to Church, get baptised and continue this journey! It’s been a month since it happened. I am free from the chaines. With Jesus I’m lively and full of joy, I feel peace and comfort. It’s the BEST decision I’ve ever made, I gave up so many things I was attached to, I am burning the demonic things that were influencing me. It’s such a great feeling to leave that old life, I really hope this reaches someone. I love you, there is a way. Amen!!

As long as I keep following Jesus and pick up my cross each day I know it’s going to be alright, ????