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Born and raised in sin - Thank you Jesus this was not my end.
I have had to overcome a lot of abuse in my life. I have had to learn to trust and love. I have made mistakes growing up. Lying, stealing, cheating I was not on the right path from the beginning. But I wanted to be a mother so bad. Then Jesus blessed me with child. It was at that point in my life, I wanted to do better, be better and be there for my child and to raise him in the right way. I've made mistakes even after, but I owned my wrongs, acknowledged them and learned from them. I went to a church when my kids were little, they turned me away because I was not a regular, a new face. I was hurt. I ordered my own bible and began my journey .
Before I received internal life I was angry, disappointed, felt emptiness.
Before I received internal life I was angry, disappointed, felt emptiness. I have had these feelings since I could remember . I had a very hard up bringing. Was sexually abused at a young age, and physically and mentally abused as well. All I could think is when is this life going to be over, when is this pain going to end. I had to build theses huge walls, block everyone and everything from ever hurting me again. In this process I thought I was protecting myself, but later I found out I was not helping myself.
Then I found Jesus and internal life. Through Jesus I found how to forgive others and there wrong doing upon a child started at age 7 years old. It was hard for me. But once I was able to over come and accept and forgive. Then that opened the door to loving thy self then loving others. Through Jesus I was able to open my heart and begin to trust again at age 28.
Now that I have found eternal life I have found hope, love, faith and cherish each passing day with my family
The day I saw my sons face when he was born, I was overwhelmed with love, hope and pure happiness. From that point I decided I'm going to be the best version of me for him.
If I were to die right now I would be with Jesus in heaven.
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