Anger to Forgivness

Much of my childhood was filled with anxiety,. I seen myself as a bad child in the hands of an angry God. This was caused by shame, anger and low self esteem.

I was sexually abused as a child.I was angry with myself God and the abuser and adults that may have protected me. I had murder in my heart.

As a young teen, I was an acolyte before a church service I prayed and had a conversation with God.I prayed to turn from my sin and unforgiveness. I then prayed for repentance and forgiveness for my abuser.

Now, that I see God as a loving Father who sent Jesus to pay for my sin gave me worth and peace.

When I learned to forgive. I had peace, so many of my stomach ailments disappeared. I learned of God's love for me gave me peace. The Holy spirit taught me my unforegiveness had physical consequences and he healed me.

The best part of this. I know Jesus paid for my sin and I will be in heaven for my eternal home.