A"mazing" Love

Love for other people makes me more aware of God's love for me. I want to love others unconditionally so that in some small way, they will know Him through me. I would say that is my purpose in life.

The most difficult time in my life was as a child growing up. My mother and father divorced when I was 5. My mother never got over it. She was mostly an unhappy and unpeaceful person. It was my goal to never "feed the beast" even though most of the time she was unhappy because of outside influences. I remember being poor and yet, God took care of us. I had friends to play with and reasons to be happy. As I fell asleep there was always some small thing to be remember or look forward to. Still with Mom's unhappiness, I had to learn to grow up on my own even though I am blessed with a very loving and giving sister. This, like so many situations in my life, has turned out to be a blessing. It makes it easier not to judge others, when you have been there yourself. I do remember my Mom sharing, " walk a mile in someone else's moccasins" and you will understand them better. At my Mom's funeral I talked about the fact that she was finally at peace. Her lack of peace, led me to seek His peace. Another blessing. My story is full of His blessings, many major and the daily little joys. How would I have seen them without my Heart, Jesus?

Jesus walks with me and talks with me and He tells me I am his own. There is such joy in this. I have had Him beside me since I was a child and read the words "God is love". Sure for a long time until I read in a random book that God surely had led me to and had me open to the correct page and the precise words, believed that I was involved in my salvation by being good. But once again, my Savior took me and showed me the truth. I love the maze God has led me through. Instead of fear and hopelessness, He gave me blessing at every obstacle. God knows I love to figure things out for myself. Blessed assurance, Jesus is mine!