Before I received eternal life everything I did was motivated out of fear and insecurity.
I would go through the motions of what was "expected of me" for the fear of what would happen if I didn't. I did not feel accepted unless I did what people wanted me to.
Of course I never felt complete, secure or at peace. I could not please everyone and rarely ever pleased myself because of this.
Then, I received eternal life.
After I received eternal life, I realized that I did not have to perform to other people's expectations and that I was totally accepted by God right where I was and He has been faithful to never leave me insecure or afraid of things because - He is in control.
Now that I have eternal life, I don't worry about doing things to gain acceptance. I have the peace and security of God's unconditional love.
It is so wonderful to know that when I die I will go to Heaven and be with God forever.